Anonymous asked: Today I contemplated suicide because I'm not doing well in school and I'd rather die than disappoint my mom by flunking out of college.
::long hug:: honey, nothing you can do can steal the love of your mother from you. Your grades can change and to be honest, a lot of us have flunked out of college the first time (I did). My mom did her first time as a 18ish year old but went back as a single parent of three, got her degree and went on to become the director of nursing.
We all make mistakes but none of our mistakes are worth us taking our lives. Your mother will feel so much more pain that the baby she carried and raised is now gone from the earth than you failing college.
We all fail sometimes. These failures prepare us for later on in life. Don’t take your life today. We need you here. Your mom needs you here. You are so loved and deserving of a second chance. Death doesn’t offer you that.
Look up and know that we are all here for you and I am praying with you and for you. But don’t kill yourself dear. Don’t do it. Switch courses, take a break, go out of town for a few days. But don’t you take your life.
With so much love,
eta: I can say what I do from experience. I have had suicidal thoughts sometimes. And when I told my mother I could see her watching my life flashing over her lives and she broke down in a way that I never saw before. I’ve seen my mother cry. But never like that.
She held me like I was a small child, wept all over me, and made me promise to never to try to do such a thing.
I wish my parent would have held me like a small child. I attempted suicide once & was hospitalized. I got a long lecture from my (then) pastor and parents about the medical bills & told to get over my sexual abuse. Which is why I don’t do any religion at all anymore. My stepdad makes jokes about it.